Wow, it's been a while since I've updated this, but I feel like this is a good spot to write this... I think I am going to use this blog for ranting or something that can help me express how I feel about things.



Last night, boyfriend and I have got into a fight. An argument that, I myself was wondering "What's going on, now..?!" I've been pretty moody lately and I hate the fact sometime I take it on him.. I know it's wrong. Of course I know that. I don't know why I'm feeling grumpy lately...I just can't stand how I deal with things. He's been so good to me and here I am, being a bitch. We talked about it and yes went to bed without anger. Although, I still wonder why I do these things and why he is still with me! He tells me he loves me and that he cannot leave me. It's hard. We live with each other for almost a year now:) August 31st is one year:o What do I think of it? Well, I love it except the stupid fights. I just can't stand me. When I'm upset, oh boy, I cry cry cry. Like a baby. Pisses me off. I know I'm strong but my eyes aren't. They jsut got to let those babies out. Everytime, I am upset, I rather be still, quiet and just cry it out. I don't like bitching or yelling at someone. It's just not my character to do so. With him, he wants to know on the spot. Deals with it on the SPOT. I'm not like that, it takes me a whileee and I mean A WHILE.. For me to calm the f*** down and talk it out with him. I'm glad he still have patience for me.

I hope that our relationship stay strong! I will try my best to be the best girlFriend ever! I will TRY to atleast TRY to come to him & not always the other way around. I'm hoping to not cry out anymore and just TRY to talk. If I'm upset and does not want to bother him about it, I will stay in the Balcony and have some time alone. I can't always drag him into my problems with me all the time, Unless it is needed! I'm going to be a tough cookie from now on:O I reallyyyy truly adore him & I still want to be with him! We've been together for about 19 months and it will keep going I HOPE!!!!


He's the f***** best andddddd I should always be thankful to have him. Appreciate him more and do what a good gF is suppose to do.

"TALK & dont't be a baby, for shitsake you're 20!"